when i'm the one standing in my way

This week has been very enlightening to me personally. I have always thought I was a strong individual and able to conquer the world. This week, I realized how many insecurities I was still harboring. Wow! It is kind of a bit scary how insecure I still am in some ways! And, here I was patting myself on the back for being such a cool cat. But, I'm tying myself down, limiting my potential, rereading the last chapter of my life.



Seriously, I realized this week how much I was letting my experiences at New Dawn decrease my chances of being successful at AMCAD. See, whenever I tried something new at New Dawn, the answer was always no. I would sometimes move ahead as much as possible and the executive team would change their minds, but most often not. I stopped asking and just did.

At AMCAD, I am expected to ask. I need to have data behind my requests and there will always be a compromise, but I have to ask! I have tentatively asked some questions and the answers are tentatively YES! I am viewed as the expert, not just someone who is pushy. I am empowered to make radical changes, as long as they are the ones that will make the best, most positive changes throughout the company. I am truly starting a new chapter in my career, self-esteem, and confidence.

I said this was going to be an interesting year. Well, here it is just barely the end of February and I feel like a new person! I just can't express how excited I am to step into this new role and really change the world! At least my little corner of it. :)

adventures in va - part one

Well, it is official. I have my own residence in Virginia! No more living out of hotels and eating out. Although I am still "commuting" back and forth, it is nice to have a place to call my own and feel welcome.

My adventures began on Monday. I finally made it to VA about 9am after a very long day playing with the SCA and night traveling from Vegas to DC. On my drive to the office, I thought I would make it without my GPS turned on, partly because my phone died and I was feeling lazy, partly because I thought I was amazing, and having driven that way three times already, I could surely do it again...right? Well, if I would NOT have missed my exit, all would have been well. Having missed my exit, I got so turned around I really had no idea which way I was heading. Was finally able to pull off the freeway, plug in my phone, and get back on the right track. I was an hour late getting to the office, but I don't think anyone noticed. I worked for a couple of hours (until I couldn't think straight anymore) and then drove to my new....very empty....place.

But Ann made sure that I felt welcome.

Although I had a key to my place, I didn't actually stay there until today. I needed a bed. I was offered a mattress to stay on the floor but couldn't get my achy bones to agree with that idea. So, I stayed in a hotel until last night. Today, I unpacked the kitchen and bathroom stuffs I had brought with me and waited for my bed to be delivered. I was lucky in my bed shopping. I was able to get a platform bed (love the clean look of the lower foot board) with a sleigh headboard (another style of bed I love) and two drawers (can we say yay for storage!). The beauty of a platform bed is that you only need one mattress, the bed acts as the foundation. But alas, when my bed was delivered, this is what I got.

Yup, that sucker is about FOUR FEET TALL!! I have to use a chair to get on it. I knew immediately the person who put my order together messed up. I thought about making the delivery peeps just take it right back out the door but I wanted to make sure I could return it without any problems so I needed to call the store, and not wanting to hold up the deliveries of other people waiting on new stuff that I day, I just signed the paperwork. I was on the phone with the store before they even pulled out of the driveway. And, I was able to get a full refund for the unnecessary mattress and schedule a pick up.

What a week!

today was just one of those days...

Yup, one of those days where everything goes wrong and the stress builds up until...



I know it will all pass. I know things will get better. I know that this is not permanent. But still. I don't love days like today. I'm tired, I forgot to eat lunch, and I haven't exercised for over a month (so much for my foundation for fitness). I'm really looking forward to the weekend. Who knows, I might even do something quite dangerous. :)

sometimes it is not worth coming home...

Wow, what a week. Seriously, I am only in Logan for one week and so much has happened.

First, it has snowed EVERY. SINGLE. DAY! And, we are not talking a little bit. I've moved at least six inches of snow every day. I know this area needs to moisture. I know everyone has been praying for it. I just need to let it happen. If I could just hole myself up in my house and watch it snow I wouldn't mind. Unfortunately, I need to be out and about and driving around in this mess. Here is a picture of what fell last night. This is day 5.

Second, I get a NEW FURNACE! Yup, that's what I said, a new furnace. I kind of figured that something was wrong but didn't know how serious it was until I had someone come out and look at it. 1. The filter design is severely lacking. As in, it doesn't actually filter what I needs to. So, the furnace is dirty and that was causing problems. 2. It has a prolonged flameout, which means that the flame is coming out as far as the door and shouldn't be working as it is a HUGE fire hazard. The safety measures that would prevent the furnace from working with such a flagrant fire hazard were never installed...like ever.

And now, tonight I travel to Savannah, GA for five days. Back to Logan for 2. Down to Vegas for 3. Back to VA for three weeks. YaY!!